I'm sure many of you out there will be able to relate to this post. Do you ever go through periods of feeling utterly disgusted with yourself. When no matter what you put on you feel you look disgusting or fat. And when you stare at yourself in the mirror all you see is frumpiness. No matter what I wear, how I do my hair or my makeup I feel ugly and disgusting. It's hard to feel sexy when you are feeling this way and it's especially hard in a marriage. I always want my husband to look at me like I'm the sexiest person on the planet but when I don't feel that way about myself it's hard to act confident.
When we met I was working in an office setting and my daily uniform consisted of sexy work clothes and heels. Now I work with kids and my uniform consists of pants and tops that can get dirty. No need to wear my hair down or put on heels. Kids grab anything and everything and heels won't be useful when I'm chasing after a kiddo who has a tantrum and decides to run away. Not only does my hubby see me in my unattractive daily wear but he sees me in pajamas more often than anything else. The minute I get home from work I change into sweat pants. No heels or cute shirts for me
I also haven't been able to hit the gym as much as I'd like. I feel like all my free time is spent cleaning, doing laundry or grocery shopping. Weekends we always have something going on and when we don't all I want to do is relax. Not to mention that it's still 100 degrees here so daily walks with the dogs or runs around the apt track are out of the questions. Energy is zapped the minute I step outside
And don't get me started on my hair. Last year I cut off my long hair into a cute bob style. I have continued to keep it short much to my husband's dismay. Don't get me wrong he likes my hair anyway but lately he has been asking me to grow it long again. So on top of feeling fat and frumpy, I feel fat and frumpy with short hair. What is it about long hair that instantly exudes sex appeal and short hair does not. Especially since my hair is in that awkward in between stage, layers are all over the place, the style doesn't sit right and the color has faded into an ugly red.Ugh
Sorry that this post is one big long bitch fest about myself. It's just so hard to feel good about myself these days. I know I need to start hitting the gym and eating better but it can be so hard at times. How do I get the motivation to get my ass up and to the gym. Are there any diets out there that really work? Can any of y'all relate?