Sunday, September 22, 2013
You're Gonna Miss This
One of my all time favorite songs is Your gonna Miss this by Trace Adkins. It came out shortly before I was married and I remember playing it over and over a year later when I packed up my car, left my job, family, and friends and officially made the move to NC where my husband was stationed
Even now hearing this song I can't help but cry. Back before I was married whenever I heard this song I was reminded of my childhood. Now when I hear it I think of my life now. Some days I get so overwhelmed with the constant cleaning, cooking, bottle washing, diaper changing and teething that I just want to scream. But after the house is clean and the kdis are asleep I want them to be awake again, playing and making a mess.
A friend and I were talking today about how our houses resembled a Fisher Price showroom. And they do. I think I own pretty much every single fisher price toy out on the market. While some days the clutter, bright colors and irritating noises can really bother me, I can't even begin to imagine how empty my living room will feel when they are all gone.
As my kids get older and older I find myself feelin gnostalgic about how fast the time is flying by. Even now when Gianna pushes me away for a hug, or refuses to let me kiss her I can't help but feel hurt and offended. I know it will only get worse during the teenage years and the less and less my kids need me, the more I will find myself clinging to the past
All we can do is live in the moment. I may not have the biggest house, the nicest car, the cleanest house or the fully decorated model home we all envisioned we would have once we became adults. But my house is full of love, with two beautiful children and a husband who I adore. And while days can be tough, I know that one day I will be wishing for all these moments back. So who cares about the messy house, the constant diaper changes and the toys thrown all over my floor. I can't imagine my life without them. And I know I will always be the parent that wants these years back. So make them count. For you are going to miss them