Damn hormones

Time goes by so fast. I think every mom can agree with that statement. Lately I am all to well aware of how fast time goes by. And some days I have a hard time dealing with that!

Take for example nursing. I nursed Gianna until she weaned herself at 10 months old. I planned on doing the same with Ethan but he is a big boy. A very big boy and around the 5 month mark I noticed when nursing he acted like he wasn't getting enough milk so I started supplementing with formula. He loved it! He would suck down an 8oz bottle in a minute. So I started pumping during the day, feeding him formula or breast milk for his feedings and nursed only at night. Pretty soon he started rejecting the bottles of pumped milk and preferred the formula. At the 6 month mark I stopped pumping and moved him to formula. He still nurses at night but that is it. Yesterday as I went to shower I noticed my nursing chest had all but disappeared. And I burst into tears

I now have to get used to this non pregnant, non nursing body that has been missing for the past 2 years. With the disappearance of my porn star nursing boobs came the arrival of my special monthly friend. This was all to much to take!
I walked out into the living room and looked at my 7 month old with tears in my eyes. My pregnancy with him seemed to fly by and his babyhood even more so. I can't believe how big he is already. I wanted to scoop him up and put him back inside my belly

And as I watched him stand on all fours trying to crawl I looked over at my beautiful, independent daughter. Since her surgery she has started talking so much more and clearly makes all her needs known. She has shown more interest in wanting to play with us and she is constantly learning something new and continues to amaze me everyday
One of her new favorite things to do is jump up and down in her crib. While lowered as far as it can go, she hasn't figured out how to get out of it yet. But it's only a matter of time. The other morning I woke up to the sound of thudding over the monitor and Gianna calling Mommy, I jumping.

So this weekend we will be converting her crib into a full sized bed. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was setting up her nursery and awaiting her arrival.

And this new surge of hormones isn't helping with any of this. I went from pregnant, to nursing to pregnant again. Now my body is finally trying to regulate after all of that and it's doing some crazy things! I thought pregnant hormones were bad. Post pregnancy hormones could be worse!


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