Last night I went to bed with a heavy feeling if sadness. This morning I woke up with an empty put in my stomach. The hubs leaves today and for some reason I'm having a hard time adjusting to that fact.
And just to clarify I'm not violating OPSEC by saying he leaves today since he is not going directly to his destination, nor is his trip classified.
Anyway I don't know why I'm dreading this deployment so much. I remember last March when he left I was almost ready for him to go. Our first deployment I stayed with my parents in WI so I had wanted to prove I could do it on my own. And I did. No questions asked. However instead of facing this deployment head on, I wanna go home, pack up all my stuff and drive to WI and stay there until he returns.
I am dreading going home tonight to an empty apt and being alone these next few months. It doesn't help that it's such a bad time of year. For me at least. I always hated January. After the Xmas decorations are down and the holiday celebrations are over it's kind of depressing. So already I'm in a funk
I know that I need to shake myself out of this and put one foot in front of the other and stare down this deployment.
Though I think I'll do that tomm. Today I'll enjoy the rest of the afternoon with the hubs and than go home and lay in bed with the dogs and watch tv.
I promise a more upbeat post Tomm. I have another dr's apt tomm that I'm looking forward too!
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