Monday, January 3, 2011

Here We Go Again

Last night I went to bed with a heavy feeling if sadness. This morning I woke up with an empty put in my stomach. The hubs leaves today and for some reason I'm having a hard time adjusting to that fact.

And just to clarify I'm not violating OPSEC by saying he leaves today since he is not going directly to his destination, nor is his trip classified.

Anyway I don't know why I'm dreading this deployment so much. I remember last March when he left I was almost ready for him to go. Our first deployment I stayed with my parents in WI so I had wanted to prove I could do it on my own. And I did. No questions asked. However instead of facing this deployment head on, I wanna go home, pack up all my stuff and drive to WI and stay there until he returns.

I am dreading going home tonight to an empty apt and being alone these next few months. It doesn't help that it's such a bad time of year. For me at least. I always hated January. After the Xmas decorations are down and the holiday celebrations are over it's kind of depressing. So already I'm in a funk

I know that I need to shake myself out of this and put one foot in front of the other and stare down this deployment.

Though I think I'll do that tomm. Today I'll enjoy the rest of the afternoon with the hubs and than go home and lay in bed with the dogs and watch tv.

I promise a more upbeat post Tomm. I have another dr's apt tomm that I'm looking forward too!

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  1. I know exactly how you are feeling. I just said good bye to my husband on New Years day. Everybody says to be strong and keep your head up. I will eventually but im giving myself a few days to be sad. I think we are entitled to you. BUT you and I will get through this! One day gone is one day closer to him being back home! Hang in there doll!

  2. You can do it! Think of all of the excitement you have to look forward to once he is home!!!!

  3. i am so sorry girl stay strong you are in my prayers. He will come home soon.

  4. Thinking of you! I know it's so hard to say goodbye, but hopefully this deployment won't feel too long!

    Enjoy the time with your husband, and know you've got us all here to support you! :)

  5. Saying goodbye is never easy, regardless of the reason/amount of time it's for.

    Kent left yesterday for a little over a month, and I'm miserable.

    Think of all the things you can accomplish while he's gone and surprise him with! You've already proven you can do this!

  6. I know, it sucks! And it's hard to be without your spouse anytime, let alone pregnant. But you can do it my dear! I hope you can find some other women to connect with there and make it easier. But know you have some friends in bloggyland if you need anything! Take care!

  7. Aww hun I'm so sorry! :( Saying "see ya later" never gets easier. & I think it's completely normal to give yourself a few days to be sad if you need it. Just remember to take it one day at a time and you will be fine.

    Praying for ya!

  8. you can do it babe! just keep busy, find a routine and some great friendsand before you know it he will be home :)