So a few posts ago I wrote about trying to conceive and how I felt about a good friend being pregnant.
I held out with said friend this weekend and it wasn't as bad as I thought. Although I was sad and a teeny bit jealous I'm glad those feelings didn't get in the way of our friendship. As this is my friends first everything is baby this and baby that. And at 5 weeks she's already fat and bloated. She's a size 2 and pregnant. I'm an 8 on a good day and not pregnant. Who should feel fat and bloated hehe
But in all seriousness I am able to push aside my feelings and focus on being very happy for her. Lately all my friends in town have had boys and I'm so hoping she has a girl so I can go crazy shopping for baby girl outfits!
Today joking with the Hubby I mentioned that in the next few days it would be our prime time to, you know...
The look of horror on his face was priceless. I got a No we are moving in 8 months, we can't move with you pregnant!! And although that is why he says we need to wait before we start trying again I know that deep down he needs a break
I've been so obsessed with charting and buying ovulation kits along with every sigle pregnancy and fertility book known to man. He admitted that he didn't know what to say to me after finding out our friend was pregnant because he felt I would lose it and blame him for everything. That made me feel horrible
So while I'm disappointed to take a break I agree it's for the best. Since he's been back from
This deployment I've been consumed with trying to conceive. It was all I talked and thought about. I know that that probably wasn't what he had been looking forward to after being deployed. Especially since it did create a stressful home situation
So today I packed up all those baby and fertility books and put them away in the back of my closet. I know it's only for a few
Months but I am looking forward to just spending some quality time with the Hubby and not having this dark cloud hanging over our heads
Thanks again for everyones comment and support these last few days. It's nice knowing I have such amazing blogger friends
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