Monday, November 1, 2010

Bye Bye Baby

So a few posts ago I wrote about trying to conceive and how I felt about a good friend being pregnant.
I held out with said friend this weekend and it wasn't as bad as I thought. Although I was sad and a teeny bit jealous I'm glad those feelings didn't get in the way of our friendship. As this is my friends first everything is baby this and baby that. And at 5 weeks she's already fat and bloated. She's a size 2 and pregnant. I'm an 8 on a good day and not pregnant. Who should feel fat and bloated hehe
But in all seriousness I am able to push aside my feelings and focus on being very happy for her. Lately all my friends in town have had boys and I'm so hoping she has a girl so I can go crazy shopping for baby girl outfits!

Today joking with the Hubby I mentioned that in the next few days it would be our prime time to, you know...

The look of horror on his face was priceless. I got a No we are moving in 8 months, we can't move with you pregnant!! And although that is why he says we need to wait before we start trying again I know that deep down he needs a break

I've been so obsessed with charting and buying ovulation kits along with every sigle pregnancy and fertility book known to man. He admitted that he didn't know what to say to me after finding out our friend was pregnant because he felt I would lose it and blame him for everything. That made me feel horrible

So while I'm disappointed to take a break I agree it's for the best. Since he's been back from
This deployment I've been consumed with trying to conceive. It was all I talked and thought about. I know that that probably wasn't what he had been looking forward to after being deployed. Especially since it did create a stressful home situation

So today I packed up all those baby and fertility books and put them away in the back of my closet. I know it's only for a few
Months but I am looking forward to just spending some quality time with the Hubby and not having this dark cloud hanging over our heads

Thanks again for everyones comment and support these last few days. It's nice knowing I have such amazing blogger friends

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  1. I bet you get pregnant soon, now that the stress is gone.

  2. Now that you aren't focusing on it I guarantee you will get pregnant! I want you to have a girl in the future too so that I can see you the ridiculous clothes I have in storage already!

  3. We are in " trying mode" as well! It's going to happen you'll see! God has amazing plans for you! :)

  4. You are totally going to get pregnant now...

  5. A lot of times when people stop trying, it suddenly happens! It's nice to not have any pressure :)

  6. I know its horrible but I agree with the two ladies ahead of me, maybe it will happen now! Hahah, either way, definitely enjoy your hubby time :)

  7. I hope you get pregnant, next time you TTC. Best of luck to y'all.

    BTW I'm Gris a new follower. You have a really cute blog.

  8. I concur! You will undoubtedly get pregnant now that you're not 'trying' to! Enjoy the time you have together, no matter what presents itself! xo

  9. I agree with the other ladies! Glad you're feeling better about all of it.

  10. It's so hard to have the one thing you know you want more than anything so close and yet so far away. For you it's a baby, for me it's engagement. But being on the same page, understanding that although it feels right for you, waiting for them is a part of the whole partnership.

    But I do know several friends who after trying for a long time, stopped and got pregnant. So you never know!

  11. and you know that when you stop TRYING it just happens :)

    i think that's a great call. it will relieve a ton of stress on both of you. enjoy these moments home in each others arms! thank you for sharing

  12. I bet you will get pregnant soon. Stress does some crazy things to the body and I bet once things calm down, you'll get your bun in the oven. Birth control isn't 100% ;)

  13. I'm a new follower as well as a new blogger...check out my blog! :)

    I agree with all of the ladies will happen once you take all of that stress off of yourself. I have a little one but I have this crazy idea (no one really understands) to 'try' for another as soon as my hubs is home from training...and right before he leaves for Korea. I still want to 'try' and my husband is supportive but I'm trying not to put all of my focus on TTC so I can enjoy my husband before he has to leave again. He'll be home in 3 weeks! Plus, if I happen to get pregnant...I would be pregnant without him. It won't be easy!

    Anyway, my point is telling you all of this... even though my situation is entirely different... is that I do relate to your feelings of wanting a baby. I promise it will happen at the perfect time for you and your husband!