Come Wednesday morning I will be out of Fayetteville and here.. Winston Salem North Carolina.
I love my life here in fayetteville, but I am a city girl and miss living in a big city. I miss skyscraper's, loads of cute boutiques and restaurants and the night life of big cities. I also miss driving into the downtown area of big city's and seeing all the lights! So I am excited to get out of Fayetteville for a few days and live it up in a bit city. Why am I going you may ask?
I am attending my very first work conference! I feel like such a professional adult telling people that I am off for a work conference! I am attending the Applied Behavior Analysis Conference in Winston Salem, NC. The conference starts Wednesday and ends Friday. I am heading up to Raleigh tomm night to stay with a co-worker and then we are leaving early wednesday morning. I have my bag all packed with professional attire and even have a cute dress packed for the cocktail hour they will be having. AHH
The only downside about going is the fact that I will miss the hubby...and his 30th Birthday which is Thursday. And of course he loves to guilt trip me by whining about me leaving him on his bday. I follow up with Well, you deploy all the time and leave me alone. His answer was that he doesn't choose to deploy, but I chose to go. I know he is kidding and wants me to go. It is a great opportunity. I will get some more hands on training that will enable me to grow professionally as a behavioral therapist and it will also allow me to meet fellow professionals in the field besides my co-workers. I am beyond excited for this opportunity!
On a side note, I was very ashamed with myself today and was reminded of how selfish I can be. My hubby got a call this morning and was notified that he would be on funeral duty this week. Which means that a fellow soldier died and M would be part of the funeral such as a pall bearer or one of the gunsmen who does the 7 gun salute. He assumed that he would be going out of town for the funeral since they didn't mention the location. Right away my first thought was Great, now we have to board the dogs and pay alot of money to do so, money we need to save for taxes. I immediately was ashamed.Here I was bitching about money, while some poor woman, mother and children were mourning the loss of a husband, son or father. I felt awful and chided myself for my selfishness. I sent out a prayer asking for forgiveness for my selfishness and praying for the family of those that lost a loved one. I vow to never again react so selfishly
On a side note, I told the hubby how awful I felt about my behavior. M tried to reassure me by telling me that the soldier that dies was an 80 year old war veteran. That did make me feel a little better but still I was reminded that in the military community, war affects everyone and that many families around the world have lost a loved one in battle. I pray for all those families and again am deeply sorry for my selfishness.