Just call me a chicken-Why I opted for a C Section

Today was my scheduled external version. When we made the appointment I wasn't too nervous. The hubs and I both felt we needed to do what the doctor suggested and trust in the people performing the procedure. Yesterday night however I made the mistake of reading up on an external version. When I read that sometimes the medicine used can cause problems I started to get nervous. Dr's and hospital's make me anxious in general. The minute I walk into a hospital my heart races and I feel faint. I was afraid that the meds used would accelerate my heart rate even more. Needless to say I didn't sleep a wink last night

This morning we arrived bright and early at 7am. Shortly after hooking baby up to the monitor's they administered my iv. Now I hate iv's. I have such tiny baby veins that it's always hard to get blood drawn or an iv put in. The nurse had to sit and pinch and plump my veins trying to find the perfect one. She found one on the side of my wrist, a little below my thumb. Talk about uncomfortable. Then she attached a bag of sugar water to help keep me hydrated since I had been told not to eat or drink since last night. Not going to lie I cried when she put the iv in. She also had to draw a ton of blood which was not fun. But after that was done I was able to calm down.

We waited three hours for the dr to arrive. The nurses were awesome! Constantly coming in to check on baby and I and to make sure we were comfortable. Finally at 10am the dr breezed in. Apparently she had lost power at her home which made her late due to her alarm not going off. She then started to discuss the risks of the procedure and go over the consent form. Some of the risks's included abruption, bleeding, labor being induced and pain to the mother and distress to the baby. All of which could lead to an emergency c-section. She also explained I would get some tribulitine which would make my heart race and make me feel anxious. That worried me since my heart was already going at a higher pace and I was feeling anxious. When my heart rate picked so did baby's. I was afraid of stressing her out.

The dr first conducted an ultrasound. Baby's head and back are snug against my left rib cage. Her butt is in my pelvis and her legs are straight out in front of her. After seeing the ultrasound the hubs and I wandered if this procedure would even work. So of course we started asking questions. Basically there was no guarantee that baby would flip, or that she would stay head down if they were successful. She also explained that if this procedure didn't work they usually would have me come back in at 39 weeks, give me an epidural and try to flip her again. However I didn't qualify for that option because due to my high blood pressure they were planning on inducing me at 39 weeks.One thing I didn't want to do was be induced. Obviously if that would have been the case I would have dealt with it because my ultimate outcome is a safe and healthy delivery for baby and I. But it seemed that regardless if the procedure was conducted today we would most likely be having a c section anyway

The hubs and I asked for a moment to ourselves to decide. We decided to not go through with this procedure and instead schedule the c section. I immediately felt like a failure. I felt like I was opting for the easy way out. I had wanted to try and deliver naturally and vaginally but in the end I had to put baby and myself first. Was it worth it to try and press on her, putting distress on her and I. Was it worth it if the procedure didn't work and we ended up doing a c section, possibly today. We just didn't think so. Once we made the decision I felt relief wash over me. I knew it was the right one. Too be honest I know my anxiety would have played a huge part during this procedure and delivery and I didn't want to stress out the baby. I feel calm knowing that we have a due date set and that I can plan or try to plan for her birth. Plus we are beyond excited to know when she will be here. I know that there are risks's to c sections and they aren't worry free but I feel comfortable in our decision and know we made the right one.

So lovebug will be here July 22nd! Two weeks from tomorrow! So again if anyone wants to share their c-section experience share away!