The hubs and I have always said we wanted a big family. We got married both think we wanted no kids and changed that to wanting 4 kids. After Gianna was born as we held our newborn baby girl in an euphoric state of bliss we jokingly asked each other, Ready for another?
When Gianna was a few months old we actually sat down and discussed when we wanted to try for another. We both agreed to wait until she turned one. The hubs would have another right away but I wanted to wait. After the hubs left at the end of January I did some more thinking on the subject and I decided I wanted to wait until she was 2. Every moment with her is amazing and watching her grow has been so exciting. She will only be our only child once and I wanted a few years to spoil the heck outta her. In face I even though about waiting until she was 3-4 before having our second kiddo
Well God has other plans doesn't he because after buying a pregnancy test on a whim, we found out we are expecting baby number 2. Yup cue in shock and disbelief. I have a 7 month old and am pregnant again. This is so now how I wanted it to happen
I didn't even think it was possible due to breastfeeding and all but like they say it only takes one time. I had gotten my period once since having Gianna at the beginning of January. When I missed it I thought it was due to breastfeeding and wacky periods. But this past weekend I had a few drinks and wanted to make sure my missed period was due to hormone levels fluctuating and not a pregnancy. I threw a test in my cart at walgreens when buying some cold medicine and i bought a pack of one knowing it couldn't be positive
I took it the minute I got home and that positive sign popped up in two seconds flat. I went to the dr yesterday as well for a blood test and got it confirmed. I'm anywhere from 5-7 weeks. I have to go back to the ob clinic and set up an appt.
After taking the test instead of being excited. I cried. And when I looked at Gianna I cried even harder. She is my baby the love of my life and I feel like I'm jipping her of time spent with me. I def won't be able to nap and rest a lot during this pregnancy and the hubby will be gone July-November and then leave again in Jan for 6-9 months so it'll be just me with 2 under 2. And of course my paranoia and anxiety have set in and I'm worried that if something happens to me I'll leave Gianna behind
I know I'm not being very rational right now. I think once this all settles in I will feel better about the situation. And I know this is all according to God's plan so I just need to trust in that.
So yes baby number 2 is on the way!