I'm Back!!

Hello everyone!!

You know it's been awhile since I have blogged when one of my blogger friends Tori messaged me on facebook today to tell me that I needed to blog hehe! Too be honest her and I were messaging each other about meeting up one day soon and she casually mentioned that I needed to blog. So here I am, finally sitting down at my computer and blogging.
And please keep my friend Tori in your thoughts and prayers as she just found out that her hubby will be deploying soon

I didn't mean to take a break from blogging. Last week the internet was messed up at my house and then when I finally got it fixed my mom came into town. She left yesterday and I meant to catch up with blogging then but I've been kinda bummed these last few days.

But I'm back and what I really want to discuss today is why men are so clueless!!!
Last week sunday, 4/11 was my two year wedding anniversary. M and I had decided to not get each other any big gifts but I was still waiting to see what he would send in the mail. He had mentioned previously that he was going to send me an exact replica of my wedding bouquet. So in the days leading up to and after my anniversary I waited for a bouquet of dark purple calla lilies to show up at my door. Never happened. Nor did I get a card or any other type of package. Now this didn't really bother me, I didn't really expect anything but a girl can hope right!!

All I was concerned about was that M got his packages for me. He had asked me to send him some toiletry items so I got a package together with the items he requested and I also made him an anniversary package. I got him some new books to read, a romantic anniversary card and all of his favorite snacks and candies. I mailed it about 6 days before our anniversary and was anxiously awaiting to hear that he had received it. He finally received the packages on the 15th. I was on the phone when he said he had picked them up. I could hear him opening the package and was waiting to hear a That card is so sweet, I feel the same way or something along those lines. Those words never came, Instead the first thing he said was Wow thanks for the soap and shampoo. So then I figured that he didn't receive the second package. I asked him if he had only received one or two and his response was oh yeah, thanks for the books. Seriously. I then asked if he received the card I sent, again his answer was not what I wanted to hear. It was, Babe I told you I received the packages, I got your card. Then he said it sounded like I had an attitude about something and he didn't want to argue. So I dropped the issue but when we hung up the phone I was pissed. At least I took the time and thought of something cute to send him on our anniversary. All I wanted was at least some acknowledgment about the package I sent him. Nope, too much to ask

So Friday morning when I woke up I was still very irritated. I grabbed my iphone and composed a very mature email that said this... When someone, aka your wife, sends you a package on your anniversary when you are deployed. It would be nice if you thanked her for the romantic card and stuff she sent you instead of getting more excited about shampoo. At least she thought of you on your anniversary.

I know, very mature. But hey, I was lonely, sad and upset about spending my anniversary alone. I understood that he couldn't send me anything but to not even say anything about the card and books really hurt my feelings. M apologized and said he was sorry for hurting my feelings and now we are fine but it did bother me for a few days.

I try to be strong all the time and to not get upset about the little things but some days it's hard and I let my emotions get the best of me and tend to overreact about certain things. But I'm learning

And speaking of overreacting, tomorrow I have a dr's appt. I hate dr's. Ever since I was little I would get so anxious when I had to go to the dr I would make myself sick. I still do to this day. I had a physical in January and set off the heart alarm monitor's because my heart was beating so fast and my bp was so high because I was so nervous. Unfortunately when I went for my physical I forgot to tell her I was on maxalt for my migraines. Well when I called to get my prescription refilled, she said I needed to come in for an appt. Hopefully I won't have to have blood drawn or have another exam done cause I am terrified of all that stuff. Wish me luck tomorrow y'all! Pray that I don't set off any monitor's!

Oh and one more confession, it is my fear of dr's and hospital's that is making me so afraid to get pregnant. How weird am I!!!